2weektweek

Because I want him to want me again.

Fri, 14 Nov 2008 04:22:28 GMT

cw: 125
gw(1): 117 (By Nov 27th)
gw(2): 115 (By Nov 29th)

I am going on a 7 day fast. Who wants it as bad as I do? I deserve unquestionable beauty. I deserve a breathtaking happiness that only comes from being thin. My ex dumped me when I was at my thinnest, and I'm going to have to see him eventually...well next time he sees me he's going to want me back. I'm not doing it for him. I am doing it for me.

7 days of no food. and then some food, but not much and then another 7 day fast. Coffee and cigarettes and water are all I need.

Day 9: Je veux te voir dans un film pornographique!

Fri, 29 Feb 2008 03:27:05 GMT

So today I had coffee with a friend after work at this cafe and there was cake and stuff but i didn't have any! YAY!
and i got offered a manager position at work! YAY TIMES TWO!

There's this guy I sort of really am lusting after but he has a girlfriend...but i figure there's no harm in flirting with me.
naughty but nice. I have lines I won't cross, but hey flirting is free game, right?

Can't wait to weight myself sunday! Day nine still going strong!

Day 8: Random Encouragement

Wed, 27 Feb 2008 22:16:23 GMT

I am starting to feel weak. UHG. Having some tea hopefully will tide me over. Gonna have to go to bed early.
As I was walking into my building some guy stopped me. I had seen him inside the dep and he smiled at me.
My first reaction was that I did something wrong or he needed directions but ....

"Excuse me miss? I just had to tell you, you're so beautiful. My friends and I saw you and just wow. Can I take you out for coffee?"

MY BRAIN WAS LIKE X_X WHAT!? WHY?!

I said no, even though the guy was pretty cute. I think it's because I was in shock, and he said "Oh ofcourse...a boyfriend! I'm an idiot! Well call me if you're everboyfriendless!" and he gave me his number.

Such a buzz from the compliment though. WEIRD. I know I've lost weight but I'm nowhere near as thin or pretty as I used to be when I was 105...

I'm gonna weigh in this sunday see how I'm doing. I'm eating on day ten though. I don't want to like...faint or anything.
It's pretty encouraging to know that my weight loss is noticeable enough to get compliments! CAN'T WAIT TO BE 120!
Think thin ladies!

Day 5: (night)

Mon, 25 Feb 2008 00:41:25 GMT

Well it's day 5. I'm 131.2...and Im really happy but I am getting kind of hungry...it's hard because I know you need food to survive but if I could just not eat until the 16th I'd be so happy.

But i get the feeling I'm going to fail, just by eating a little bit. uhg.

Day 5: (morning) I'm fucking matt damon!

Sun, 24 Feb 2008 13:23:32 GMT

131.2!!!!!

Closer and closer!

<3 And when I get home tonight I have to cleaaaaan, fun!

Hope everyone is thinking thin!

Day 4: Sugar free kisses and fat free carresses

Sat, 23 Feb 2008 22:44:54 GMT

It's funny that I'm very good at fasting, but if i have a little tiny piece of food I'll go into binge mode. I have such a hard time restricting cals so I just fast. It's easier for me because I know if I have soup I'm going to want bread or something.

All I need is my coffee, cigarettes and hot baths and I'll be okay. I'm gonna make this a 11 day fast I have decided! And when I weigh myself next sunday if i'm not atleast 130 I am going to just fast some more! If I am 130 I am going to have a salmon salad and that's it on sunday.

I'm going to start a <600 calorie diet and incorporate a workout routine.

I really hope I'm 130 by the 2nd cuz then that means i'll have like three weeks to lose 10 pounds which is like the easiest thing in the world!

Day 3(night): I feel it all

Sat, 23 Feb 2008 01:01:09 GMT

Wow! I am insanely proud of myself. I just went to buy cigarettes and I had $15.
I bought some cat food, cigarettes and I had some money left over....and I looked around and was SURROUNDED by fatty food. Chocolate bars, bagels with cream cheese, chips, ice cream, pizza and guess what?!

I BOUGHT WATER!

I am so happy! and I can't wait for my sunday weight in!
It probably is unrealistic to want to have lost 5 pounds in 4 days but wtv we'll seeee.
All I know is I'm motivated and excited and work is going well, well as well as it can go.

I saw a clip of doctor phil with the whole anorexic/bulemic girl and to be perfectly honest I don't have her problem.
I don't ever want to be THAT thin. She isn't beautiful to you guys is she?

Anyway I am so excited for my weigh in!

kudos to all you girls who are working so hard!

Day: 1 SHOES, SEX AND SUGAR-FREE!

Thu, 21 Feb 2008 04:17:21 GMT

I went shopping today! Got THE hottest steve madden shoes. And a matching hand bag! Naughty but no food! food free! Tomorrow I have work god I hate my boss a little...alot. X_x uhg. But still NO FOOD! UNTIL MARCH 17TH or so. Atleast not until I'm 120! <3

Day 1: ALL OVER AGAIN.

Wed, 20 Feb 2008 16:22:23 GMT

I am fasting until the 16th baby! that's 26 days without food. I can do it!
I wanna go downtown today! and buy shoes to encourage myself.

nobody can do this but me! I AM IN CONTROL DAMMIT!

Day 2 & 3: Ponderings

Tue, 19 Feb 2008 20:42:48 GMT

You know I can eat like a whole pizza. It's insane but I've done it...
It's hard to think that after I lose all the weight I want to I won't just shovel it all back in my mouth.
Being thin isn't easy. You have to want it bad enough. I think I do, but you know what would be great motivation?
A new wardrobe. I figure if I only had size 4 clothing, if I gained weight OMG I wouldn't have anything that would fit me and I'd have to be thin.

I get so sick of skinny infomercial. Hunger stifling shakes or weight loss cookies and the workout infomercials. JUST UHG.

Give me cigarettes and shoes!

I've been seriously thinking about becoming a stewardess/flight attendant. <3 Once I'm gorgeous I'm gonna do it.
I'd be so hot as a flight attendant. The outfit!!! and I'm good with people and I could travel. So sexy.

Reasons to be thin:

Clothing
Brian
Summer
John Mark
Bathing suits
Happiness
Stewardess
Sex
Attention <3

Day 1: Under the black light

Mon, 18 Feb 2008 03:09:13 GMT

I am happy. No food today. No food for two weeks! You know whhhhyyy because I don't have any money for food! hahaha! PERFECT!

I have so much to look forward to. So many reasons to do this fast. I can't wait to be proud of myself again.

Oh ooooh oooh no, baby please don't go.

Sun, 17 Feb 2008 02:40:58 GMT

CW:145
HW:160
LW:105
GW1:120 (March 22nd)
GW2: 110 (April 22nd)

I am going on a two week fast. It's about time. I will be updating daily maybe even more than once.
Wish me luck and if you want to join me, you're welcome <3

Much Love to the skinny <3